ϟ House on Fire
Dreamt that a winged dragon was frying my house as revenge for my finding (read: stealing) its egg when I stumbled upon it (figuratively) somewhere in a city I inexplicably assumed to be Makati. What the hell was I doing, roaming around “Makati?” I leave that to my suspension of disbelief. None of us in the neighbourhood could do anything but watch and run. Obviously, I woke up befuddled.
My one regret in the dream is that there was no Emilia Clarke to flirt with.
ϟ Weather or Not
If you think you know the weather, take a shot. You automatically relinquish your right to the last laugh. I had to bring a hoodie as I went out today, thanks to the cloudy sky. What really sucks is the temperature’s dissonance with the dimness. Essentially, I looked like a fool dragging along a hoodie on a relatively warm day. As I write this, it still hasn’t rained.
It’s been said before, but our weather’s one less thing we can be sure of nowadays. Next thing you know, we discover that the moon is actually a spaceship or a dock for space craft, monitoring the activity on our planet. That, and a certain population of creatures are actually controlling the weather and observing how we respond.
Yeah. I don’t know where I’m going with this, either. Have a nice day.
ϟ Inner Space
If you’ve noticed, the direction of my writing has recently taken a turn from outer space and extraterrestrial life to glimpses of my private and personal reflections. In case you expected otherwise, sorry. Don’t worry, my interest in the cosmos has not waned. I may just be going through a self-revelatory phase. I’m an introvert like that.
I won’t go into detail about my ongoing discoveries about myself but I’d like to share some of what I’ve observed about human behaviour and thinking. Hopefully, this helps you in some way. Life is a journey at sea and the waters won’t always be tranquil. Let’s row away.
1. Human beings are pattern-seeking creatures. Even if there are no dots, we unknowingly draw connecting lines. This applies to the fluctuations in the stock market, predicting traffic situations or guessing other people’s behaviour. We are suckers for causality so it helps to be wary as much as possible.
2. We like assigning meaning to things. We can’t help but ask ourselves questions like “What is the purpose of my life?” or “What did that winking emoticon in her text message mean? (+ Does that mean she likes me?)” or “What’s the significance of the absence of Voldemort’s nose?”
We ask these questions because we are human/We are human because we ask these questions. Again, like patterns, we tend to arbitrarily assign significance to things that really don’t mean anything. At times, this destructive habit gets in the way of our good judgment.
3. Over-thinking must be avoided like the plague. Points 1 and 2 contribute to over-thinking. I know that I, along with some friends, are guilty of this. Come to think of it, lots of us are into this type of self-hurt.
I’ve been told that I’m a dweller and I agree. I tend to excessively ponder over matters like what people tell me or what people think of me, etc. There are times when I can’t even distract myself. Such thoughts can rob me of sleep. I interpret and re-interpret incidences and coincidences that potentially don’t mean shit.
The reality of this is that 99% of the time, I end up more confused and screwed up than before I began thinking.
It’s an evil cycle and lots of us have run in the hamster’s wheel several times. Anyway, I’m just laying these things out for myself and for you. Hopefully this helps. Later.
ϟ In the Dark
When you’re kept in the dark, it won’t be long until you begin to feel alienated. When you feel alienated, poisonous thoughts creep in. When those thoughts creep in, you are paralysed by paranoia. Paranoia is best taken in small doses, not in overwhelming waves. The wall before you stretches upward, infinitely, and you feel your strength dwindle at the sight of the climb.
The arguing voices in your head begin to multiply. When the voices multiply, their volumes rise. When the volumes rise, reason drowns in the noise. When reason drowns, you are taken wherever the current takes you. When the current takes you, you will surely miss tranquil waters.
ϟ "Ksssshhhhh!" is the Sound of Steam Going Off
I am pissed and I need to let off some steam lest I grab a hammer and bust all the lightbulbs here.
Here’s a sporadically relevant list of things I absolutely detest:
1. Needless outbursts of anger.
2. Shouting in someone’s face.
3. Unnecessary bitching.
4. Playing the victim.
5. Not being the bigger man/woman.
These are symptomatic either a lack of sanity or maturity. Or both. I won’t go into the details. If you think that, by my not divulging the details I’m actually exhibiting the things I have listed, I humbly request for your pardon.
I can assure you that I am sane and mature. Arguably… Relatively… Most of the time…
Anyway. At some point, most of us have heard the saying “Lahat ng tao may pinagdadaanan," which translates to "Everyone is going through something." What this wonderful quote implies is that, because everybody has their own battles to fight, burdens to bear and whatnot, everybody needs and deserves a measure of respect.
People are going through some form of difficulty in their lives so let’s not make it worse for anybody.
If you are reading this, just be mindful of your behaviour around others. If you feel that you’re about to lose it, struggle to restrain yourself. Yes, struggle. I am not telling you to repress the feelings. I mean channel the emotions appropriately. Remind yourself that you are a civilised human being who cares about the welfare of other people and not just yours.
Having a shitty day doesn’t earn anybody the right to rain on someone else’s parade. It’s pretty basic stuff but we have to be reminded that the universe does not revolve around any one of us, even if we feel like it does.
That’s the plain truth.
We can rationalise or defend our ill behaviour (read: be annoyingly argumentative pieces of poop) but at the end of it all, we’d just be wrong. Wrong, wrong, wrong.
Please. For the sake of us all, be respectful.
Give good vibrations a chance.
(Phew. I don’t need the hammer anymore.)